Fresh personality, shoulder length, short hair, female avatar with a curtain of red rain and peach blossoms withering

I used to just want to know how to make my life better, but now I slowly realize that when you truly shoulder a sense of responsibility, you will grow up in an instant. Perhaps there won't be the same youthful ignorance as before, but there will be more other ideas and ways of dealing with things. When I was a child, I hated learning and wanted to grow up quickly, but when I really grow up, I have to learn to take responsibility on my own. I thought I wanted to study something well, but in the face of some other unnecessary small things, I gave up my dream.